Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Memories
Isn’t it sad that memories fade away? Yeah, other times it’s a great thing to have memories fade. I never thought I would forget even the smallest of memories pertaining to certain people in my life. I have kept a journal for years and was one time teased by someone (I can’t remember who it was…Shoot, another memory faded), said I would never forget anything because I write it all down. It’s true, but I look back sometimes and read something to be reminded of an event and get things out of my writing that I never saw before. Also, I write significantly less in my journal these days. Sometimes a month passes without an entry. I am getting close to starting a new book (Journal) though and I’m always excited about that. It’s an opportunity to reintroduce myself to my potential reader someday whether it is a descendent of me or not.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Upcoming shows
No, I’m not preggers. Not yet. It will happen…someday. Whatever. After seeing a fertility specialist I’m now taking a diabetes medication. No, I do not have diabetes, but this medication is supposed to help women with PCOS ovulate. He thinks I have PCOS, so I’m going to play along with it. I’m taking this month off of the Clomid. I hope this added medication will help me to ovulate every month and ultimately end up in a healthy pregnancy and baby. That is the ultimate goal. The medication is making my tummy pretty upset about the whole thing.
In the meantime my focus how now shifted to weight loss. Yeah, I’m going for it at the gym and adding jogging to my fitness routine. It has really helped to jumpstart my weight loss goals. That makes me pretty pleased. At least I can see results for my efforts. I cannot control the timeline for pregnancy, but I sure can work on my fitness. That is something I do have control of. Now, I have never been a fan of jogging. In fact, my friend Deesha and I joined the track team in high school only to quit soon after. We did attend one track meet and I think our event was the triple jump. At a practice soon after we took a warm up jog around the track and ran right off the field to drop the class while we laughed. My jogging inspiration comes after a visit from a friend in CA whom took up jogging and has lost some weight. She looks great. Anyway, I’m adding a minute a week to my jogging until I reach a mile and after that I don’t think I’ll press it. I am not interested in running 5K races or anything. I just want to drop those pesky extra pounds.
I’m excited because this summer I’m going to a few concerts. I’m going to Ozzfest with my husband and I was excited until I discovered that I read last year’s line up instead of this year’s. (I really want to see Avenge Sevenfold). Oh well, I’m sure I’ll enjoy it anyway…maybe I’ll bring a book. I wasn’t super excited about going to The Warped Tour this year and I’ve skipped a few years, but this year I’m going to go because I’ve discovered that I enjoy The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Upon further study of the line up I have a handful of other bands I’m interested in checking out. It’s no Coachella, but it will entertain I’m sure. I really want to get to CA for Coachella next year.
In the meantime my focus how now shifted to weight loss. Yeah, I’m going for it at the gym and adding jogging to my fitness routine. It has really helped to jumpstart my weight loss goals. That makes me pretty pleased. At least I can see results for my efforts. I cannot control the timeline for pregnancy, but I sure can work on my fitness. That is something I do have control of. Now, I have never been a fan of jogging. In fact, my friend Deesha and I joined the track team in high school only to quit soon after. We did attend one track meet and I think our event was the triple jump. At a practice soon after we took a warm up jog around the track and ran right off the field to drop the class while we laughed. My jogging inspiration comes after a visit from a friend in CA whom took up jogging and has lost some weight. She looks great. Anyway, I’m adding a minute a week to my jogging until I reach a mile and after that I don’t think I’ll press it. I am not interested in running 5K races or anything. I just want to drop those pesky extra pounds.
I’m excited because this summer I’m going to a few concerts. I’m going to Ozzfest with my husband and I was excited until I discovered that I read last year’s line up instead of this year’s. (I really want to see Avenge Sevenfold). Oh well, I’m sure I’ll enjoy it anyway…maybe I’ll bring a book. I wasn’t super excited about going to The Warped Tour this year and I’ve skipped a few years, but this year I’m going to go because I’ve discovered that I enjoy The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Upon further study of the line up I have a handful of other bands I’m interested in checking out. It’s no Coachella, but it will entertain I’m sure. I really want to get to CA for Coachella next year.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Still waiting
Temperature was .2 degree’s higher this morning, so I’m more hopeful that in three days I’ll have a positive pregnancy test. I’m supposedly one day late today though, so that’s making me excited. I keep my chart on fertility friend website, so it’s fun to see how my temps are different this time from the last time I ovulated. I wish I had more than one month to compare to though. This is my fourth round of Clomid and I seem to ovulate every other month. If I’m not pregnant this month I will take the same dosage next month and keep my fingers crossed that I ovulate again and make it two months in a row. I have to say though that I hope this isn’t the case. These past few months have really been a learning experience for me. I’ve learned about my fertility and if I’m not pregnant I’ll have to take notes from this cycle and go forward with more experience. For now though I’m just going to celebrate later this afternoon with maybe a chocolate milkshake. Tee hee. I’m on the final stretch of wondering here. In a few days I will know either way. Fingers crossed!!!
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Still hanging in there
I still had a high temperature this morning, so I remain hopeful that things will work out this month. I’m going to take a test on Sunday if I haven’t had my period yet, so I’m pretty excited. I looked at old emails from when I found out I was pregnant with Orion and discovered that I found out on cycle day 33. That is why I’ve decided to wait until then to take a test and hope to have another positive result.
I have to admit that I’ve been indulging in a chocolate milkshake every afternoon…yeah, bad I know, but the calcium is good for me. Ha! I’ll quit that habit for sure if I am not pregnant. Last time I was pregnant all I wanted was Honey nut Cheerios and Strawberries, but not together. I ate a ton of fruit salads. I have cut out soda drinking already just in case I am expecting, but this time I’m still loving the sweets at the moment, so it could very well be PMS I am experiencing.
Today I went to get some food and walked through a gift shop while I was waiting for my order. When I was in there it smelled like someone passed gas. I did not linger in the store (like the odor was) and instead went back to the café to check on my order. I passed the bathroom on the way there because I thought I might take money out of the ATM machine and I swear it smelled worse there and the door was shut. I was super grossed out. It makes me wonder if there was a sewage problem or if my nose is just getting sensitive already. Wishful thinking? We’ll see.
Every day that passes without a drop in temperature or my period gives me hope for the month! It would be just fantastic if I am pregnant. December would be the birth month. I’d definitely be looking forward to Christmas this year if this was the case.
I have to admit that I’ve been indulging in a chocolate milkshake every afternoon…yeah, bad I know, but the calcium is good for me. Ha! I’ll quit that habit for sure if I am not pregnant. Last time I was pregnant all I wanted was Honey nut Cheerios and Strawberries, but not together. I ate a ton of fruit salads. I have cut out soda drinking already just in case I am expecting, but this time I’m still loving the sweets at the moment, so it could very well be PMS I am experiencing.
Today I went to get some food and walked through a gift shop while I was waiting for my order. When I was in there it smelled like someone passed gas. I did not linger in the store (like the odor was) and instead went back to the café to check on my order. I passed the bathroom on the way there because I thought I might take money out of the ATM machine and I swear it smelled worse there and the door was shut. I was super grossed out. It makes me wonder if there was a sewage problem or if my nose is just getting sensitive already. Wishful thinking? We’ll see.
Every day that passes without a drop in temperature or my period gives me hope for the month! It would be just fantastic if I am pregnant. December would be the birth month. I’d definitely be looking forward to Christmas this year if this was the case.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
13 days post ovulation!!!
Ok, so I am on cycle day 29 and 13 dpo. I’m trying not to get too excited, but that was made easy last night when I had some cramps and I thought my period was coming. I thought for sure my temperature would be low this morning. It wasn’t though and I’m still in the game. Last month my temp started to go down on 11 days post ovulation, so this is progress for me. I’m hoping this means that I’ve hit the jackpot and conceived. I am going to try to wait another day or two before I test since I’m technically not late for my period yet, but it’s sure getting difficult to contain myself.
As far as possible indicators (other than my temperature) I don’t have many except for possibly my fatigue, hunger, and nips sensitivity. I have been pretty dry CM wise, but yesterday I had some lotion looking CM moments. That’s another reason I thought my period was on the way. That coupled with the cramps I thought for sure I was a goner. I do remember that last time I ovulated in January I had cramps most of the week prior to having my period and once I did have my period the cramps were not very pleasant.
I’m just keeping my fingers crossed and hope for the best. I still have a part of me that feels like pregnancy will never happen, but on the other hand it happened before and I know it can happen again. I just feel pretty sure of it now. If not this month it will happen soon.
As far as possible indicators (other than my temperature) I don’t have many except for possibly my fatigue, hunger, and nips sensitivity. I have been pretty dry CM wise, but yesterday I had some lotion looking CM moments. That’s another reason I thought my period was on the way. That coupled with the cramps I thought for sure I was a goner. I do remember that last time I ovulated in January I had cramps most of the week prior to having my period and once I did have my period the cramps were not very pleasant.
I’m just keeping my fingers crossed and hope for the best. I still have a part of me that feels like pregnancy will never happen, but on the other hand it happened before and I know it can happen again. I just feel pretty sure of it now. If not this month it will happen soon.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Cycle Day 23
Here I am on my fourth round of Clomid, but this time 150 mg. I didn’t ovulate last month on the 100 mg, so my doctor upped the dosage again. She said that if I didn’t ovulate she would have me see the fertility specialist at their clinic. If I did ovulate she would keep me on that dose for a total of three months. I was a bit frustrated going into this month because it only seems to be working for me every other month. This did give me a bit of a positive attitude though because I didn’t ovulate last month, so I was hoping that this would be another ovulation month.
I went to Utah for a few days this month for my grandmother’s funeral service and had to start my Clomid there. I know all my cousins, mom, and uncles can boast about this, but my grandmother taught me how to bodysurf at the beach! She was a fabulous person and a great friend to me. The service was beautiful and it was exciting to be reintroduced to long lost family members and see second cousins I haven’t seen in years. At the family luncheon I sat between the siblings to my grandfather. This was particularly exciting for me since I don’t remember my grandfather, but admire him. He passed away when I was almost two. I was able to stay with my best friend while I was in Utah. It’s nice to refresh a friendship once in a while. We have lived in separate states for most of our lives, but have managed to maintain a sturdy friendship that I am convinced will span our lifetimes and beyond. What is that Buzz Lightyear quote, “Infinity and beyond!”
Last weekend one of my oldest childhood friends came to visit for a few days. This was right during my “fertile” time. I wasn’t sure exactly when I would ovulate if I did at all, so I take a cover all my bases type approach. Thankfully my basal temperatures started to go up indicating that I ovulated somewhere around cycle day 16. I am now seven days post ovulation and I’m stoked. I go in for my blood test on Saturday to check for ovulation and then in a week I can test for pregnancy if I haven’t started another cycle.
I’m trying not to think about things too much this month and it has been pretty easy to do that with all the distractions I have had…my traveling and a friend coming to visit. Now I’m just in the wait and see phase, so there is really nothing to do at this point but to wait. I am just grateful to have ovulated at all because then I get a chance at this motherhood thing one more.
I went to Utah for a few days this month for my grandmother’s funeral service and had to start my Clomid there. I know all my cousins, mom, and uncles can boast about this, but my grandmother taught me how to bodysurf at the beach! She was a fabulous person and a great friend to me. The service was beautiful and it was exciting to be reintroduced to long lost family members and see second cousins I haven’t seen in years. At the family luncheon I sat between the siblings to my grandfather. This was particularly exciting for me since I don’t remember my grandfather, but admire him. He passed away when I was almost two. I was able to stay with my best friend while I was in Utah. It’s nice to refresh a friendship once in a while. We have lived in separate states for most of our lives, but have managed to maintain a sturdy friendship that I am convinced will span our lifetimes and beyond. What is that Buzz Lightyear quote, “Infinity and beyond!”
Last weekend one of my oldest childhood friends came to visit for a few days. This was right during my “fertile” time. I wasn’t sure exactly when I would ovulate if I did at all, so I take a cover all my bases type approach. Thankfully my basal temperatures started to go up indicating that I ovulated somewhere around cycle day 16. I am now seven days post ovulation and I’m stoked. I go in for my blood test on Saturday to check for ovulation and then in a week I can test for pregnancy if I haven’t started another cycle.
I’m trying not to think about things too much this month and it has been pretty easy to do that with all the distractions I have had…my traveling and a friend coming to visit. Now I’m just in the wait and see phase, so there is really nothing to do at this point but to wait. I am just grateful to have ovulated at all because then I get a chance at this motherhood thing one more.
Monday, February 12, 2007
30 the new 20? Not so sure about that.
In preparation for my 30th birthday all last year I could be heard saying that 30 is the new 20. But now I’m 30 and I have to admit that it sucks to get older. This cold bug I caught can be blamed. I am looking forward to being able to breathe through my nose again. I take for granted my nose and its clear airways and also my throat and the absence of pain until a sore throat hits.
I am now on cycle day 20 and I do not think I’ve ovulated this month yet. I have had some fertility signs indicating that ovulation might be approaching based on cervical mucus findings, but up until this morning it has been difficult to take my basal temperature because I was sick and stuffed up. I hope that I will have a high basal temp tomorrow morning. That would be great. Like last month even if I don’t get pregnant this month it would be nice to ovulate at the very least.
This weekend I realized that May is on its way in just a few short months and I don’t know if I’m prepared for it. I am not prepared for the year anniversary of Orion’s birth. I think maybe my husband and I should go on a vacation for Orion’s birthday. I was hoping that I would be pregnant by May so that I can be happy about something in our near future, but I’m not sure I will be pregnant by then now that I know I’m struggling so much to ovulate monthly.
Not only do we have to deal with infertility we also have to deal with the fact that we might loose the baby we tried so hard to get to SMA. That sucks to say the least. I feel bad for my husband sometimes because of my infertility. Yesterday he was depressed. I haven’t seen him that bad since just after Orion passed. I wished I could do something for him, but I was thankful that I wasn’t having a bad day too. That would have been difficult. I just wish my body worked. I do feel less of a woman sometimes due to my issues.
On another note I might be changing jobs within the same company. It will be a good move for me I think and it involves a raise, so that’s always good. I will be taking the job one of my good friends is vacating. I’m sad that she is leaving. My direct supervisor will be my current Bishop at church. He is great, so I’m happy about this. I just have to make it official and find a replacement for my job, train them, and then I can go be trained for my friend’s job…my future job.
I am now on cycle day 20 and I do not think I’ve ovulated this month yet. I have had some fertility signs indicating that ovulation might be approaching based on cervical mucus findings, but up until this morning it has been difficult to take my basal temperature because I was sick and stuffed up. I hope that I will have a high basal temp tomorrow morning. That would be great. Like last month even if I don’t get pregnant this month it would be nice to ovulate at the very least.
This weekend I realized that May is on its way in just a few short months and I don’t know if I’m prepared for it. I am not prepared for the year anniversary of Orion’s birth. I think maybe my husband and I should go on a vacation for Orion’s birthday. I was hoping that I would be pregnant by May so that I can be happy about something in our near future, but I’m not sure I will be pregnant by then now that I know I’m struggling so much to ovulate monthly.
Not only do we have to deal with infertility we also have to deal with the fact that we might loose the baby we tried so hard to get to SMA. That sucks to say the least. I feel bad for my husband sometimes because of my infertility. Yesterday he was depressed. I haven’t seen him that bad since just after Orion passed. I wished I could do something for him, but I was thankful that I wasn’t having a bad day too. That would have been difficult. I just wish my body worked. I do feel less of a woman sometimes due to my issues.
On another note I might be changing jobs within the same company. It will be a good move for me I think and it involves a raise, so that’s always good. I will be taking the job one of my good friends is vacating. I’m sad that she is leaving. My direct supervisor will be my current Bishop at church. He is great, so I’m happy about this. I just have to make it official and find a replacement for my job, train them, and then I can go be trained for my friend’s job…my future job.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Cycle 3 Day 1
Cycle 3 Day 1
So, I started my period. Yeah, I’m a little bummed about that, but at least I ovulated. I have a chance if I ovulate. In a few short days I’ll be taking Clomid again to help with ovulation this month. I’m okay with not being pregnant yet. It is a little sad, but I’d rather wait. I’d like to think that if it happened this month maybe it would have been an affected baby (SMA), so it’s better to hold off one month and have a healthy child instead.
At least this next time I’ll be on a short vacation during the two week wait to find out if we are pregnant or not, so at least I’ll be distracted. That will be nice.
I did have pretty bad PMS this month. I wonder if it was that bad because it has been so long since I last ovulated. We’ll see how it goes with this next cycle here. Last night my cramps were not very fun, but I went to bed early and that helped.
Cruella, thanks for the comment. I forget that anyone reads this sometimes…I don’t think anyone else does! Least of all someone who might know me personally.
So, I started my period. Yeah, I’m a little bummed about that, but at least I ovulated. I have a chance if I ovulate. In a few short days I’ll be taking Clomid again to help with ovulation this month. I’m okay with not being pregnant yet. It is a little sad, but I’d rather wait. I’d like to think that if it happened this month maybe it would have been an affected baby (SMA), so it’s better to hold off one month and have a healthy child instead.
At least this next time I’ll be on a short vacation during the two week wait to find out if we are pregnant or not, so at least I’ll be distracted. That will be nice.
I did have pretty bad PMS this month. I wonder if it was that bad because it has been so long since I last ovulated. We’ll see how it goes with this next cycle here. Last night my cramps were not very fun, but I went to bed early and that helped.
Cruella, thanks for the comment. I forget that anyone reads this sometimes…I don’t think anyone else does! Least of all someone who might know me personally.
Monday, January 22, 2007
CD 29
CD 29
So, today I had a huge decrease in my basal temperature reading! I am a little bummed, but hoping that tomorrow my temps will go back up to the high zone. I have read mixed reviews on the whole “implantation dip” thing and am grasping to the hope that this is the case for me…after all I did have a dip just before ovulation as well, so never know. I have no idea what happened last time with Orion since I wasn’t taking my temps at that point. If my temp does go up again tomorrow morning I’ll be so excited because I think this can be a very good indicator for some people. I can say that I had a pretty bad bout of nausea on Saturday afternoon. Yesterday in church I had some pretty uncomfortable stomach cramps. I was ready to get home for sure. Today hasn’t been so bad, but I am tired (I wish I had the night off tonight so I can sleep) and very, very crabby. I’m annoyed with just about everything today and know that the best place for me today would have been at home in bed instead of trying to interact with people. Oh well, I’ll take that as a good sign. I have been going to the bathroom a lot and I do have increased appetite today. I feel like I could eat every two hours.
I guess all my hope hinges on that basal temperature reading tomorrow morning to see if it gets back up. If it doesn’t go back up and I have my period soon that means that all the symptoms I’ve been feeling have been in my head. I am trying not to exaggerate any of them, but it’s possible that I want them so badly that it is just happening anyway. My husband thinks I’m pregnant. I would feel bad if I wasn’t. Next month I’ll try not to speak of any symptoms I might be having until after the pregnancy is confirmed. I think I’ll just stop now too just in case I’m not.
So, today I had a huge decrease in my basal temperature reading! I am a little bummed, but hoping that tomorrow my temps will go back up to the high zone. I have read mixed reviews on the whole “implantation dip” thing and am grasping to the hope that this is the case for me…after all I did have a dip just before ovulation as well, so never know. I have no idea what happened last time with Orion since I wasn’t taking my temps at that point. If my temp does go up again tomorrow morning I’ll be so excited because I think this can be a very good indicator for some people. I can say that I had a pretty bad bout of nausea on Saturday afternoon. Yesterday in church I had some pretty uncomfortable stomach cramps. I was ready to get home for sure. Today hasn’t been so bad, but I am tired (I wish I had the night off tonight so I can sleep) and very, very crabby. I’m annoyed with just about everything today and know that the best place for me today would have been at home in bed instead of trying to interact with people. Oh well, I’ll take that as a good sign. I have been going to the bathroom a lot and I do have increased appetite today. I feel like I could eat every two hours.
I guess all my hope hinges on that basal temperature reading tomorrow morning to see if it gets back up. If it doesn’t go back up and I have my period soon that means that all the symptoms I’ve been feeling have been in my head. I am trying not to exaggerate any of them, but it’s possible that I want them so badly that it is just happening anyway. My husband thinks I’m pregnant. I would feel bad if I wasn’t. Next month I’ll try not to speak of any symptoms I might be having until after the pregnancy is confirmed. I think I’ll just stop now too just in case I’m not.
Friday, January 19, 2007
CD 26 and counting down
CD 26
I am stoked because I just got a message from the nurse at my doctor’s office. My progesterone level was 18.6!!! I’m so happy. I knew because of my basal temperature that I had ovulated this month, but it’s good to hear these results. Last month my progesterone level was only 0.4, so this is a huge increase in numbers. Now I just have to continue on in my two week wait. If it doesn’t happen this month I hope it will happen next month. It’s a good thing to have just ovulated in the first place.
In the way of symptoms I do have to get up (for the past three nights) to pee in the middle of the night. I also as of today officially have tender nipples. (Or it might be because I keep pinching them to check...haha.) I have been a bit emotional lately. I almost shed a tear last night watching The OC when Taylor read Ryan’s poem. J I normally would not be touched about that kind of thing. Oh and I also got upset about something stupid at work and felt like crying out of frustration. My emotions are just all over the place. I know it could just be PMS too, but I would like to think it’s more than that.
I’m also happy it’s Friday. I’m ready for the weekend. I have some plans, but they do include sleeping in tomorrow morning!!!
I am stoked because I just got a message from the nurse at my doctor’s office. My progesterone level was 18.6!!! I’m so happy. I knew because of my basal temperature that I had ovulated this month, but it’s good to hear these results. Last month my progesterone level was only 0.4, so this is a huge increase in numbers. Now I just have to continue on in my two week wait. If it doesn’t happen this month I hope it will happen next month. It’s a good thing to have just ovulated in the first place.
In the way of symptoms I do have to get up (for the past three nights) to pee in the middle of the night. I also as of today officially have tender nipples. (Or it might be because I keep pinching them to check...haha.) I have been a bit emotional lately. I almost shed a tear last night watching The OC when Taylor read Ryan’s poem. J I normally would not be touched about that kind of thing. Oh and I also got upset about something stupid at work and felt like crying out of frustration. My emotions are just all over the place. I know it could just be PMS too, but I would like to think it’s more than that.
I’m also happy it’s Friday. I’m ready for the weekend. I have some plans, but they do include sleeping in tomorrow morning!!!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
CD 23
CD 23
I’m really looking forward to my blood test on Thursday to confirm ovulation! I am more excited to start feeling pregnancy symptoms full force. J I really hope that I am pregnant, but on the other hand if I’m not pregnant this month it is for a reason. I’d like to think that it’s Heavenly Father saying that the baby would have been positive for SMA if it had been fertilized. I’ll wait another month if it means we have a healthy baby instead. So, today I have been pressing the sides of my chest to see how sensitive my breasts are. I have a little bit of sensitivity, but I’d like more. Also, I’m tired. Last night I went to bed before 11 (early for me) AND I got up to pee around 2 AM. I haven’t gotten up to pee in the middle of the night since I was pregnant with Orion. I’m so happy. Dare I hope that I am pregnant again? How exciting.
I’m going to try not to think about it.
Who am I kidding? I’ll be thinking about it all the way until I take the pregnancy test and find out if I’m pregnant or if I’ll be taking another round of Clomid. I hope that over the next few days my symptoms become more and more pronounced to confirm a pregnancy though. I miss being pregnant. I also feel bad for Dom. He wants to be a dad so badly. We both want to be parents and I want to give him a healthy child.
I’m really looking forward to my blood test on Thursday to confirm ovulation! I am more excited to start feeling pregnancy symptoms full force. J I really hope that I am pregnant, but on the other hand if I’m not pregnant this month it is for a reason. I’d like to think that it’s Heavenly Father saying that the baby would have been positive for SMA if it had been fertilized. I’ll wait another month if it means we have a healthy baby instead. So, today I have been pressing the sides of my chest to see how sensitive my breasts are. I have a little bit of sensitivity, but I’d like more. Also, I’m tired. Last night I went to bed before 11 (early for me) AND I got up to pee around 2 AM. I haven’t gotten up to pee in the middle of the night since I was pregnant with Orion. I’m so happy. Dare I hope that I am pregnant again? How exciting.
I’m going to try not to think about it.
Who am I kidding? I’ll be thinking about it all the way until I take the pregnancy test and find out if I’m pregnant or if I’ll be taking another round of Clomid. I hope that over the next few days my symptoms become more and more pronounced to confirm a pregnancy though. I miss being pregnant. I also feel bad for Dom. He wants to be a dad so badly. We both want to be parents and I want to give him a healthy child.
Monday, January 15, 2007
Ovulation has occured
CD 22
I’m pretty sure I ovulated. I don’t want to get too excited, but I’ve been charting my basal temps and boom, on Friday they started to go up. Now, this morning the temp was high still (even higher than the previous three), so it gives me hope that I actually did ovulate. I go in for a blood test this week and I am looking forward to hearing the results of that one. I am trying not to think about what symptoms I might be starting to experience soon (pregnancy symptoms). I’m just stoked to have ovulated. Even if I don’t get pregnant this month I am thankful to have an egg pass! I’m thrilled that my body is working the way it should now.
Now I just have to wait another week and a half to see if I am pregnant or not. If not I’ll just try again next month.
I’m pretty sure I ovulated. I don’t want to get too excited, but I’ve been charting my basal temps and boom, on Friday they started to go up. Now, this morning the temp was high still (even higher than the previous three), so it gives me hope that I actually did ovulate. I go in for a blood test this week and I am looking forward to hearing the results of that one. I am trying not to think about what symptoms I might be starting to experience soon (pregnancy symptoms). I’m just stoked to have ovulated. Even if I don’t get pregnant this month I am thankful to have an egg pass! I’m thrilled that my body is working the way it should now.
Now I just have to wait another week and a half to see if I am pregnant or not. If not I’ll just try again next month.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Cycling...ovulating?
CD 17
I’m just not sure if I ovulated or not at this point. I had a dip in my basal temperature on Monday morning (day 15) and was feeling pretty discouraged about that because I felt like I was going in the wrong direction. I googled the dip in temperature and was thrilled to find out that some women experience a dip the actual day of ovulation. I went from depressed to elated in just a matter of minutes. (I was feeling pretty down on Sunday). I was hoping to then wake up the next morning with an elevated temperature indicating that ovulation had occurred, but unfortunately it only went up a bit. I again checked the internet and discovered that it can be a gradual rise after ovulation as well. I again took my temperature this morning to see that it rose back to my normal temperature again. Maybe tomorrow it will be even higher? That would sure be nice. Maybe gradual for me is three days. If I don’t ovulate this month I know I’ll feel even more disappointed than last month. Then what if I didn’t ovulate yet…just another day will complete the 5-10 day wait after taking Clomid. What’s wrong with me? The first time I ever took Clomid it worked for me and I got pregnant because of ovulation. Why is it so difficult to ovulate now? I’m trying not to give up hope on this since I very well could have ovulated the other day and I’m just experiencing mood swings and the gradual temperature rise. It would be nice if I woke up tomorrow morning and my temperature was much higher and stayed that way. I’d feel better. Even if I don’t get pregnant this month it would sure be nice to have an egg pass through.
I have been experiencing the whole gamut of emotions over the past few days. I have been hopeful and positive that this month was the month and then on the other hand I’ve felt like a child would never come from my womb again. I felt worthless. This can be a good thing though because possibly it means that something is working hormonally. (I have to look on the bright side). I’m looking forward to next week when I’ll have another blood test to find out more conclusively if I’ve ovulated. That will give me more piece of mind.
I’m just not sure if I ovulated or not at this point. I had a dip in my basal temperature on Monday morning (day 15) and was feeling pretty discouraged about that because I felt like I was going in the wrong direction. I googled the dip in temperature and was thrilled to find out that some women experience a dip the actual day of ovulation. I went from depressed to elated in just a matter of minutes. (I was feeling pretty down on Sunday). I was hoping to then wake up the next morning with an elevated temperature indicating that ovulation had occurred, but unfortunately it only went up a bit. I again checked the internet and discovered that it can be a gradual rise after ovulation as well. I again took my temperature this morning to see that it rose back to my normal temperature again. Maybe tomorrow it will be even higher? That would sure be nice. Maybe gradual for me is three days. If I don’t ovulate this month I know I’ll feel even more disappointed than last month. Then what if I didn’t ovulate yet…just another day will complete the 5-10 day wait after taking Clomid. What’s wrong with me? The first time I ever took Clomid it worked for me and I got pregnant because of ovulation. Why is it so difficult to ovulate now? I’m trying not to give up hope on this since I very well could have ovulated the other day and I’m just experiencing mood swings and the gradual temperature rise. It would be nice if I woke up tomorrow morning and my temperature was much higher and stayed that way. I’d feel better. Even if I don’t get pregnant this month it would sure be nice to have an egg pass through.
I have been experiencing the whole gamut of emotions over the past few days. I have been hopeful and positive that this month was the month and then on the other hand I’ve felt like a child would never come from my womb again. I felt worthless. This can be a good thing though because possibly it means that something is working hormonally. (I have to look on the bright side). I’m looking forward to next week when I’ll have another blood test to find out more conclusively if I’ve ovulated. That will give me more piece of mind.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
CD 9 Cycle 2
CD 9
Today I will be taking the last dose of Clomid for this cycle. I can’t believe it. I just have to wait now to see if ovulation will occur this time around. I was very discouraged last month when I didn’t ovulate. In three days my husband and I are supposed to start trying for a little over a week and then I just have to wait until day 25 to take my blood test. In the meantime I am being very cliché this year and starting a diet and exercise program today. I hope to stick to it. My goal this month is to loose 4 pounds. I don’t want to loose too much just before getting pregnant, but if I don’t get pregnant this month I’d hate to waste the time. Next month I’ll go for another four pounds if I’m not pregnant yet. I’m doing pretty good about not drinking soda. I did have a few over the weekend for the New Year’s holiday time, but I don’t feel like I need one today. I just wanted to get out of the daily habit of drinking sodas. That alone should help me lose a bit of weight. I’m going to try eating an apple or two a day as well because I heard about a diet where you eat an apple before every meal.
I picked a tropical vacation destination to visit finally. We wanted to go to the Caribbean waters, but just didn’t know what. We thought about doing a Sandals vacation, but that is just so expensive. At that point I completely changed locations to Maui, Hawaii. Then a construction worker recently mentioned that he was going to Mexico soon with his girlfriend and we discussed the area. It sounded perfect and I started looking into that area and I’m excited now. It would be fun to go before morning sickness or after it passes. I just have to start planning the trip now. I’ll get more excited when we have actually paid for the trip.
Wish me luck!!!
Today I will be taking the last dose of Clomid for this cycle. I can’t believe it. I just have to wait now to see if ovulation will occur this time around. I was very discouraged last month when I didn’t ovulate. In three days my husband and I are supposed to start trying for a little over a week and then I just have to wait until day 25 to take my blood test. In the meantime I am being very cliché this year and starting a diet and exercise program today. I hope to stick to it. My goal this month is to loose 4 pounds. I don’t want to loose too much just before getting pregnant, but if I don’t get pregnant this month I’d hate to waste the time. Next month I’ll go for another four pounds if I’m not pregnant yet. I’m doing pretty good about not drinking soda. I did have a few over the weekend for the New Year’s holiday time, but I don’t feel like I need one today. I just wanted to get out of the daily habit of drinking sodas. That alone should help me lose a bit of weight. I’m going to try eating an apple or two a day as well because I heard about a diet where you eat an apple before every meal.
I picked a tropical vacation destination to visit finally. We wanted to go to the Caribbean waters, but just didn’t know what. We thought about doing a Sandals vacation, but that is just so expensive. At that point I completely changed locations to Maui, Hawaii. Then a construction worker recently mentioned that he was going to Mexico soon with his girlfriend and we discussed the area. It sounded perfect and I started looking into that area and I’m excited now. It would be fun to go before morning sickness or after it passes. I just have to start planning the trip now. I’ll get more excited when we have actually paid for the trip.
Wish me luck!!!
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
CD 2 Cycle 2
I got my period for Christmas along with a couple zits on my chin…big ones. Oh well, it’s for the greater good of family planning. I can handle it. I finished my Provera on Saturday and started my cycle yesterday in the afternoon. I’m looking forward to Friday when I start my next round of Clomid. I really, really hope that I ovulate and even better conceive this month! That would be extra exciting. We will just have to wait and see what happens and let the medicine go to work.
My mother in law is in town for a week. She is one of the greatest people I know.
My mother in law is in town for a week. She is one of the greatest people I know.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Day 40 Cycle 1
No ovulation last month. I was pretty bummed out after I got my lab results. I am now on day 40 of my cycle and hoping to start a new cycle soon so that I can take Clomid again. This time I will be taking 100 mg of Clomid. I really hope that it works for me. Just to ovulate would be something because then at least I have a chance at conceiving.
I have been taking Provera again to induce my cycle. I started that a week ago and I have three more doses to take after today. Last month I started my cycle before I was even done taking Provera, so I’m sure I could start any day now. I had some cramps today, so hopefully that is a good sign that things are moving along. Never in my life did I think I’d be so excited to have a period! I haven’t been feeling any weird symptoms so far, but I hear that hot flashes are more intense on the higher dosage of Clomid. At least it is winter and I can just go outside for a minute to cool down if need be.
I have committed myself to not taking my basal temp this month. I have discontinued it for now and might pick up on it again towards the end of my next cycle just to see how things might have turned out, but for now it’s just something extra to think about. I have been hyper-vigilant about all things related to my cycle and that is just difficult and disappointing for me due to my irregularity. It’s all still up in the air whether or not I’ll be taking ovulation predictor kits when the time gets close. I have a few left from last month, so I might just use those to see if I catch anything.
I’m looking forward to Christmas. We have many more gifts under the tree than last year. Last year cash was tight because of all the debts we had. This year now that we are paid off it is great. I have been trying (unsuccessfully) to save my second job money to pay for a truck. My husband has been off of work for the past month, so we have been living off my two incomes. When he goes back to work in January we hope to start saving at that point. I’d like to get my car repaired (body work) and also take a vacation or two before we have another baby and before I quit my second job. If super expensive vacations don’t happen right now that’s okay too. I have my little list prioritized. It will be nice to just get some cash saved instead of being in the hole. It’s nice just to have the monthly utilities to pay. I hope to keep my job until April at the very least and then I’ll scale back to one full time job. I look forward to that day.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
CD 18
Today I am on day 18 of my cycle and I am not sure if I ovulated or not. I started taking ovulation tests on cycle day 12 and had a slight purple line on the result side of the window. I know that Clomid can kind of mess with the results, so I was waiting for a dark purple line to indicate ovulation was going to occur. I had also heard to test in the afternoon and twice a day to detect the surge. I was on vacation for Thanksgiving though and could not test at the same time daily, so this was not ideal. We did see purple for many days, but it was hard to tell if the test was a positive or not. I think it was more frustrating than last year when we conceived. I didn’t get ovulation tests and we did just fine. I don’t know if I’m going to try that again next month (if I don’t get pregnant this month.) I did take tests up until yesterday when I got one that was obviously absent of any purple line. I must have already ovulated then during my purple days. I just don’t know what day. There were days that the purple line was pretty darn close to the control line. I could have had diluted urine (I drink a lot of water). I am charting my basal temps still, but that was kind of screwy as well since I didn’t get up at the same time daily and sometimes would forget to put the thermometer next to my bedside and would have to walk over and find it in my travel bag. I’m just keeping my fingers crossed that it did happen. Dom and I made sure to cover our bases just in case if you know what I mean. Part of me still wants to take the ovulation predictor tests for a few more days just to see if I experience more purple lines. I have three left since I bought two boxes, so I just might do that.
I’m not experiencing anything yet except for some stomach irritation and fatigue today. I don’t remember how early I felt symptoms last time and I did not chart my temps last time, so that will be new to me. I hope I can be lucky enough to conceive quickly again. I do know that I started to feel very tired and had breast tenderness last time pretty early on, but I think it was just before my period would have started, so I have to wait another week and a half to see what happens. I don’t think it happened this month though. I doubt that I even ovulated. I’ll go in for a lab next week to find out for sure though. That will set my mind at ease. If I at least ovulate I have a chance.
It is nice to be actively trying though instead of just waiting. It is hard to wait, but I have waited before. I’m learning a great lesson in patience. I wish I would have been more detailed last time in my journal at home to compare. At least this time I’m trying to be more aware. I think last time everything was just so surreal. I really didn’t expect to get pregnant the very first month of Clomid. I had no expectations going into the experience. This time I have hope that I will have the same luck, but who knows. I just hope it does happen in the first three months like my doctor predicted.
I don’t know if tracking things helps or not. It can’t be healthy to think about conceiving so much. I mean, charting temps, taking daily ovulation tests…just waiting for the time to come. It is just too much anticipation. If I don’t get pregnant this month I’ll probably not go crazy with all this stuff next time. We did just fine last year without it. I think I was more relaxed too which helps. The blood test that I am getting next week will be more accurate than those tests I did all week this week, so I might as well just let the doctor do her thing and let things happen as they happen.
In the meantime I am going to cut out sodas again. It is time. I indulged since Orion passed away in comfort “foods” like soda, but now I need to be back on track. I’m also going to try to make more time for exercise for the next few weeks. If I’m given a bit more time without pregnancy I might as well make the most of it.
I’m not experiencing anything yet except for some stomach irritation and fatigue today. I don’t remember how early I felt symptoms last time and I did not chart my temps last time, so that will be new to me. I hope I can be lucky enough to conceive quickly again. I do know that I started to feel very tired and had breast tenderness last time pretty early on, but I think it was just before my period would have started, so I have to wait another week and a half to see what happens. I don’t think it happened this month though. I doubt that I even ovulated. I’ll go in for a lab next week to find out for sure though. That will set my mind at ease. If I at least ovulate I have a chance.
It is nice to be actively trying though instead of just waiting. It is hard to wait, but I have waited before. I’m learning a great lesson in patience. I wish I would have been more detailed last time in my journal at home to compare. At least this time I’m trying to be more aware. I think last time everything was just so surreal. I really didn’t expect to get pregnant the very first month of Clomid. I had no expectations going into the experience. This time I have hope that I will have the same luck, but who knows. I just hope it does happen in the first three months like my doctor predicted.
I don’t know if tracking things helps or not. It can’t be healthy to think about conceiving so much. I mean, charting temps, taking daily ovulation tests…just waiting for the time to come. It is just too much anticipation. If I don’t get pregnant this month I’ll probably not go crazy with all this stuff next time. We did just fine last year without it. I think I was more relaxed too which helps. The blood test that I am getting next week will be more accurate than those tests I did all week this week, so I might as well just let the doctor do her thing and let things happen as they happen.
In the meantime I am going to cut out sodas again. It is time. I indulged since Orion passed away in comfort “foods” like soda, but now I need to be back on track. I’m also going to try to make more time for exercise for the next few weeks. If I’m given a bit more time without pregnancy I might as well make the most of it.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Diet Completed
10/23/06
I’m now on Day 6 of my diet! I can’t believe I made it this far. I did loose pounds, but not the ten pounds in a week that the diet boasts. It’s probably because I drank diet sodas daily. It looks like I’ve lost four pounds though and that’s good. I still have the rest of today and tomorrow to go though. I am on the “easy” part. I get to eat beef and veggies today. I don’t feel starving all day, so that’s good. After the diet is over I’ll take a few days off (but I still plan on eating light) and then I’ll do another week of this.
10/25/06
I’m officially done with my diet as of last night. I lost four pounds. It’s good. I am starting another one on Monday with my boss. This one seems easier. I have heard good things about this one, so I’m interested to see the results. My friend recently lost five pounds in a week with this diet and my boss told me that she and her sister have done this diet before and lost weight on it. That would be nice, so if this one works I’ll probably use this one for a while. I just needed to take a few days off in between diets.
I have two weeks until I see my doctor and start up the Clomid again. I am looking forward to getting that going. I really enjoy the acupuncture, but it’s not working quickly enough for me. I told my acupuncturist that I would start coming after I successfully had a baby and would be more patient about getting my cycles regulated. Right now I just want to hurry up and get knocked up again. I don’t want to be patient. I can’t believe it has been five months already since I had Orion. Although sometimes I feel like it never happened. I think of my pregnancy like it was a dream. It’s hard to believe that I lost my little person.
The best I can do for myself right now is to think positively about the future and work hard. The days and weeks are passing relatively quickly and I’m very happy about that. I heard that my brother (who is in the navy) might be visiting home for Thanksgiving. I’m hoping this is true. It would be nice to see him. If not he is planning a visit to California in the summer, so I hope to see him there. It would be fun to go to the beach out there even though I hope to be huge with pregnancy again by then. I really didn’t mind though this last time. I miss feeling Orion.
I’m now on Day 6 of my diet! I can’t believe I made it this far. I did loose pounds, but not the ten pounds in a week that the diet boasts. It’s probably because I drank diet sodas daily. It looks like I’ve lost four pounds though and that’s good. I still have the rest of today and tomorrow to go though. I am on the “easy” part. I get to eat beef and veggies today. I don’t feel starving all day, so that’s good. After the diet is over I’ll take a few days off (but I still plan on eating light) and then I’ll do another week of this.
10/25/06
I’m officially done with my diet as of last night. I lost four pounds. It’s good. I am starting another one on Monday with my boss. This one seems easier. I have heard good things about this one, so I’m interested to see the results. My friend recently lost five pounds in a week with this diet and my boss told me that she and her sister have done this diet before and lost weight on it. That would be nice, so if this one works I’ll probably use this one for a while. I just needed to take a few days off in between diets.
I have two weeks until I see my doctor and start up the Clomid again. I am looking forward to getting that going. I really enjoy the acupuncture, but it’s not working quickly enough for me. I told my acupuncturist that I would start coming after I successfully had a baby and would be more patient about getting my cycles regulated. Right now I just want to hurry up and get knocked up again. I don’t want to be patient. I can’t believe it has been five months already since I had Orion. Although sometimes I feel like it never happened. I think of my pregnancy like it was a dream. It’s hard to believe that I lost my little person.
The best I can do for myself right now is to think positively about the future and work hard. The days and weeks are passing relatively quickly and I’m very happy about that. I heard that my brother (who is in the navy) might be visiting home for Thanksgiving. I’m hoping this is true. It would be nice to see him. If not he is planning a visit to California in the summer, so I hope to see him there. It would be fun to go to the beach out there even though I hope to be huge with pregnancy again by then. I really didn’t mind though this last time. I miss feeling Orion.
Friday, October 20, 2006
A little lighter
So, last night I was feeling pretty light headed at my second job. I thought I’d have to go home because I was feeling sick. I stuck it out though and felt a bit better after a short break and ate some cucumber and asparagus. I figured I was probably feeling pretty crummy because of my diet. I had not eaten anything substantial since the potato I had for breakfast that morning. No wonder I was feeling faint! I did manage to exercise after work anyway, so that’s good.
Today my menu consists of only fruits and veggies, but no bananas or potatoes. I had a fruit salad for breakfast. It feels good to exercise my willpower. I don’t do that often enough. I weighed myself (even though I should just wait until the diet is complete) and I have lost some pounds already. Yay. I just wanted to make sure that all this hunger is worth while. It will be great to eat again though. I miss Mexican food the most. I really want to go to Taco Del Mar today for lunch. It’s a good thing I already have something else planned for lunch though. I’m going to the store tonight to get the ingredients for the special soup that goes along with this diet. I’m going to cook some up tonight most likely.
I’m also excited to play The Sims 2: Pets that came out this week. I purchased it this morning. That will probably keep me up a little late tonight. (But at least it will distract me from my hunger.)
Today my menu consists of only fruits and veggies, but no bananas or potatoes. I had a fruit salad for breakfast. It feels good to exercise my willpower. I don’t do that often enough. I weighed myself (even though I should just wait until the diet is complete) and I have lost some pounds already. Yay. I just wanted to make sure that all this hunger is worth while. It will be great to eat again though. I miss Mexican food the most. I really want to go to Taco Del Mar today for lunch. It’s a good thing I already have something else planned for lunch though. I’m going to the store tonight to get the ingredients for the special soup that goes along with this diet. I’m going to cook some up tonight most likely.
I’m also excited to play The Sims 2: Pets that came out this week. I purchased it this morning. That will probably keep me up a little late tonight. (But at least it will distract me from my hunger.)
Thursday, October 19, 2006
New diet
10/18/06
So, I’m starting a week long diet. Yeah, I know that usually people gain back all the weight after a rapid weight loss diet, but it sure would be nice to have that weight taken away. I am trying to loose the last of my baby weight. It would be great to loose it before I got pregnant again. I hope to get pregnant in the next few months, but for now I’ll work hard at loosing weight. Today was day one (of seven) and I was supposed to eat only fruits. I had an avocado for lunch to help me get through the day. I have been hungry almost all day, but it will be good if this works. Tomorrow is only veggies. I’ll start the day with a baked potato. We’ll see how that one goes too. Should be interesting.
My nose ring is out already by the way. It just didn't feel right for me. I liked it though. I had it in for a few days before my boss pulled me aside and asked about it. I thought this was kind of silly because there are several people, one in the same department as I am with nose piercings, but of course I get called out. I should have known better. I can't get away with anything...that's just the way it is for me.
Acupuncture has done nothing for me yet in the way of making ovulation happen. Unfortunately it can take up to six months to regulate someone. I’ll probably just have to go back to that after I have my next child. I don’t want to wait that long. I’d rather get the ball rolling by taking good ole Clomid. I have an appointment in a few weeks with my doctor, so I’ll be asking for this process to commence. I really do enjoy acupuncture though and have an appointment weekly until I have my MD appointment. I have also asked for pressure points to be put in my ear for weight loss. I did loose two pounds in the second week that I had them in. I was told that they help to speed up metabolism. That’s always good.
I was feeling pretty down on Sunday because my sister was talking about her latest (fourth) pregnancy. She is 15 weeks along and thinks the baby might be a boy. She will know for sure in a few weeks. She was telling me the names she has chosen and all that pregnancy excitement stuff and it made me a little jealous. I want those things again.
10/19/06
Day two of my diet and I had a potato for breakfast. That is what the diet said to do, so that’s what I’m doing. For the remainder of the day I am only allowed to eat vegetables. Last night was difficult because at my part time job they had free pizza, chips, cake, etc out on the tables in the break room. I just put my nose in the book I’m reading and ate my watermelon and cantaloupe. I hope today will be a bit easier. I feel a lot better already since I’ve started the day with a potato. I feel pretty full. I am very interested to see if I do loose the weight the diet claims a person should loose while on this diet. I feel like a science project. If the diet does work I’ll take a few days off and then start another week. I am working out in the evenings after my second job to help the process along. I also just feel better after a good work out. I wish I had more time to work out, but I just can’t get myself out of bed earlier in the morning. Oh well, at least I am squeezing some in. It will be nice when I go back to one full time job and I dream of the day I have a child and a part time job. That will be so great.
So, I’m starting a week long diet. Yeah, I know that usually people gain back all the weight after a rapid weight loss diet, but it sure would be nice to have that weight taken away. I am trying to loose the last of my baby weight. It would be great to loose it before I got pregnant again. I hope to get pregnant in the next few months, but for now I’ll work hard at loosing weight. Today was day one (of seven) and I was supposed to eat only fruits. I had an avocado for lunch to help me get through the day. I have been hungry almost all day, but it will be good if this works. Tomorrow is only veggies. I’ll start the day with a baked potato. We’ll see how that one goes too. Should be interesting.
My nose ring is out already by the way. It just didn't feel right for me. I liked it though. I had it in for a few days before my boss pulled me aside and asked about it. I thought this was kind of silly because there are several people, one in the same department as I am with nose piercings, but of course I get called out. I should have known better. I can't get away with anything...that's just the way it is for me.
Acupuncture has done nothing for me yet in the way of making ovulation happen. Unfortunately it can take up to six months to regulate someone. I’ll probably just have to go back to that after I have my next child. I don’t want to wait that long. I’d rather get the ball rolling by taking good ole Clomid. I have an appointment in a few weeks with my doctor, so I’ll be asking for this process to commence. I really do enjoy acupuncture though and have an appointment weekly until I have my MD appointment. I have also asked for pressure points to be put in my ear for weight loss. I did loose two pounds in the second week that I had them in. I was told that they help to speed up metabolism. That’s always good.
I was feeling pretty down on Sunday because my sister was talking about her latest (fourth) pregnancy. She is 15 weeks along and thinks the baby might be a boy. She will know for sure in a few weeks. She was telling me the names she has chosen and all that pregnancy excitement stuff and it made me a little jealous. I want those things again.
10/19/06
Day two of my diet and I had a potato for breakfast. That is what the diet said to do, so that’s what I’m doing. For the remainder of the day I am only allowed to eat vegetables. Last night was difficult because at my part time job they had free pizza, chips, cake, etc out on the tables in the break room. I just put my nose in the book I’m reading and ate my watermelon and cantaloupe. I hope today will be a bit easier. I feel a lot better already since I’ve started the day with a potato. I feel pretty full. I am very interested to see if I do loose the weight the diet claims a person should loose while on this diet. I feel like a science project. If the diet does work I’ll take a few days off and then start another week. I am working out in the evenings after my second job to help the process along. I also just feel better after a good work out. I wish I had more time to work out, but I just can’t get myself out of bed earlier in the morning. Oh well, at least I am squeezing some in. It will be nice when I go back to one full time job and I dream of the day I have a child and a part time job. That will be so great.
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