Just a bully

Sometimes I wonder what makes miserable people so miserable. Seemingly small things that shouldn’t make or break our day can cause such a huge stir enough so to ruin an entire day if we let it. Do those people get a certain satisfaction from talking down to other people they think they are superior over? Yeah, I had an incident recently and it has caused me to think it over. I guess not everyone can be easy going and let things slide. I certainly wouldn’t be bothered by certain little things. I figure that it takes way too much energy to be such an irritated person all the time. Can you imagine? Constantly having something to berate someone for. Karma…that’s all I have to say. I will just politely take my lumps from the individual and let them feel their satisfaction in knowing they got me. I realize that everyone has their bad days, but if it’s a chronic issue that can no longer be blamed simply on a bad day. We can’t let every day be a bad day. Where did the quality of life go at that point?

The most embarrassing part—I was okay after she left, but I needed a moment to recover. However, a few people heard the conversation and came over to ask if I was okay, etc. I shrugged it off and said that I was letting it slide. That person got what they wanted by letting out some aggression. After the dust settled and everyone walked away I felt the tears in my eyes. I think it was more because of the offer for help (even though it came after the bully left). I quickly gathered myself and continued to work. I just wanted to be alone and clear my head.

I know my pregnancy is probably not helping with the whole sensitivity thing either. I felt myself wanting to defend, but decided not too since I’m sure my hormones would have done most of the talking, so in the long run it was much better to just be the better person and let her have her say. At least from my perspective I am conscious of how it feels and make an effort not to make others feel that way.

As for my pregnancy. I am nine weeks along now and tired still. I could probably sleep all the time if I was home. Just in the last few days food has started to taste bad! I can’t eat that much and I’m almost always nauseated. I do love Honey-Nut cheerios though! I could probably eat a bowl for all three meals they are so good. My first doctor’s appointment is next Friday. I am looking forward to go because then we can set up the appointment for my first ultrasound to see the baby and make it more of a reality. It’s hard to believe it’s really happening for me.