10/23/06
I’m now on Day 6 of my diet! I can’t believe I made it this far. I did loose pounds, but not the ten pounds in a week that the diet boasts. It’s probably because I drank diet sodas daily. It looks like I’ve lost four pounds though and that’s good. I still have the rest of today and tomorrow to go though. I am on the “easy” part. I get to eat beef and veggies today. I don’t feel starving all day, so that’s good. After the diet is over I’ll take a few days off (but I still plan on eating light) and then I’ll do another week of this.
10/25/06
I’m officially done with my diet as of last night. I lost four pounds. It’s good. I am starting another one on Monday with my boss. This one seems easier. I have heard good things about this one, so I’m interested to see the results. My friend recently lost five pounds in a week with this diet and my boss told me that she and her sister have done this diet before and lost weight on it. That would be nice, so if this one works I’ll probably use this one for a while. I just needed to take a few days off in between diets.
I have two weeks until I see my doctor and start up the Clomid again. I am looking forward to getting that going. I really enjoy the acupuncture, but it’s not working quickly enough for me. I told my acupuncturist that I would start coming after I successfully had a baby and would be more patient about getting my cycles regulated. Right now I just want to hurry up and get knocked up again. I don’t want to be patient. I can’t believe it has been five months already since I had Orion. Although sometimes I feel like it never happened. I think of my pregnancy like it was a dream. It’s hard to believe that I lost my little person.
The best I can do for myself right now is to think positively about the future and work hard. The days and weeks are passing relatively quickly and I’m very happy about that. I heard that my brother (who is in the navy) might be visiting home for Thanksgiving. I’m hoping this is true. It would be nice to see him. If not he is planning a visit to California in the summer, so I hope to see him there. It would be fun to go to the beach out there even though I hope to be huge with pregnancy again by then. I really didn’t mind though this last time. I miss feeling Orion.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Friday, October 20, 2006
A little lighter
So, last night I was feeling pretty light headed at my second job. I thought I’d have to go home because I was feeling sick. I stuck it out though and felt a bit better after a short break and ate some cucumber and asparagus. I figured I was probably feeling pretty crummy because of my diet. I had not eaten anything substantial since the potato I had for breakfast that morning. No wonder I was feeling faint! I did manage to exercise after work anyway, so that’s good.
Today my menu consists of only fruits and veggies, but no bananas or potatoes. I had a fruit salad for breakfast. It feels good to exercise my willpower. I don’t do that often enough. I weighed myself (even though I should just wait until the diet is complete) and I have lost some pounds already. Yay. I just wanted to make sure that all this hunger is worth while. It will be great to eat again though. I miss Mexican food the most. I really want to go to Taco Del Mar today for lunch. It’s a good thing I already have something else planned for lunch though. I’m going to the store tonight to get the ingredients for the special soup that goes along with this diet. I’m going to cook some up tonight most likely.
I’m also excited to play The Sims 2: Pets that came out this week. I purchased it this morning. That will probably keep me up a little late tonight. (But at least it will distract me from my hunger.)
Today my menu consists of only fruits and veggies, but no bananas or potatoes. I had a fruit salad for breakfast. It feels good to exercise my willpower. I don’t do that often enough. I weighed myself (even though I should just wait until the diet is complete) and I have lost some pounds already. Yay. I just wanted to make sure that all this hunger is worth while. It will be great to eat again though. I miss Mexican food the most. I really want to go to Taco Del Mar today for lunch. It’s a good thing I already have something else planned for lunch though. I’m going to the store tonight to get the ingredients for the special soup that goes along with this diet. I’m going to cook some up tonight most likely.
I’m also excited to play The Sims 2: Pets that came out this week. I purchased it this morning. That will probably keep me up a little late tonight. (But at least it will distract me from my hunger.)
Thursday, October 19, 2006
New diet
10/18/06
So, I’m starting a week long diet. Yeah, I know that usually people gain back all the weight after a rapid weight loss diet, but it sure would be nice to have that weight taken away. I am trying to loose the last of my baby weight. It would be great to loose it before I got pregnant again. I hope to get pregnant in the next few months, but for now I’ll work hard at loosing weight. Today was day one (of seven) and I was supposed to eat only fruits. I had an avocado for lunch to help me get through the day. I have been hungry almost all day, but it will be good if this works. Tomorrow is only veggies. I’ll start the day with a baked potato. We’ll see how that one goes too. Should be interesting.
My nose ring is out already by the way. It just didn't feel right for me. I liked it though. I had it in for a few days before my boss pulled me aside and asked about it. I thought this was kind of silly because there are several people, one in the same department as I am with nose piercings, but of course I get called out. I should have known better. I can't get away with anything...that's just the way it is for me.
Acupuncture has done nothing for me yet in the way of making ovulation happen. Unfortunately it can take up to six months to regulate someone. I’ll probably just have to go back to that after I have my next child. I don’t want to wait that long. I’d rather get the ball rolling by taking good ole Clomid. I have an appointment in a few weeks with my doctor, so I’ll be asking for this process to commence. I really do enjoy acupuncture though and have an appointment weekly until I have my MD appointment. I have also asked for pressure points to be put in my ear for weight loss. I did loose two pounds in the second week that I had them in. I was told that they help to speed up metabolism. That’s always good.
I was feeling pretty down on Sunday because my sister was talking about her latest (fourth) pregnancy. She is 15 weeks along and thinks the baby might be a boy. She will know for sure in a few weeks. She was telling me the names she has chosen and all that pregnancy excitement stuff and it made me a little jealous. I want those things again.
10/19/06
Day two of my diet and I had a potato for breakfast. That is what the diet said to do, so that’s what I’m doing. For the remainder of the day I am only allowed to eat vegetables. Last night was difficult because at my part time job they had free pizza, chips, cake, etc out on the tables in the break room. I just put my nose in the book I’m reading and ate my watermelon and cantaloupe. I hope today will be a bit easier. I feel a lot better already since I’ve started the day with a potato. I feel pretty full. I am very interested to see if I do loose the weight the diet claims a person should loose while on this diet. I feel like a science project. If the diet does work I’ll take a few days off and then start another week. I am working out in the evenings after my second job to help the process along. I also just feel better after a good work out. I wish I had more time to work out, but I just can’t get myself out of bed earlier in the morning. Oh well, at least I am squeezing some in. It will be nice when I go back to one full time job and I dream of the day I have a child and a part time job. That will be so great.
So, I’m starting a week long diet. Yeah, I know that usually people gain back all the weight after a rapid weight loss diet, but it sure would be nice to have that weight taken away. I am trying to loose the last of my baby weight. It would be great to loose it before I got pregnant again. I hope to get pregnant in the next few months, but for now I’ll work hard at loosing weight. Today was day one (of seven) and I was supposed to eat only fruits. I had an avocado for lunch to help me get through the day. I have been hungry almost all day, but it will be good if this works. Tomorrow is only veggies. I’ll start the day with a baked potato. We’ll see how that one goes too. Should be interesting.
My nose ring is out already by the way. It just didn't feel right for me. I liked it though. I had it in for a few days before my boss pulled me aside and asked about it. I thought this was kind of silly because there are several people, one in the same department as I am with nose piercings, but of course I get called out. I should have known better. I can't get away with anything...that's just the way it is for me.
Acupuncture has done nothing for me yet in the way of making ovulation happen. Unfortunately it can take up to six months to regulate someone. I’ll probably just have to go back to that after I have my next child. I don’t want to wait that long. I’d rather get the ball rolling by taking good ole Clomid. I have an appointment in a few weeks with my doctor, so I’ll be asking for this process to commence. I really do enjoy acupuncture though and have an appointment weekly until I have my MD appointment. I have also asked for pressure points to be put in my ear for weight loss. I did loose two pounds in the second week that I had them in. I was told that they help to speed up metabolism. That’s always good.
I was feeling pretty down on Sunday because my sister was talking about her latest (fourth) pregnancy. She is 15 weeks along and thinks the baby might be a boy. She will know for sure in a few weeks. She was telling me the names she has chosen and all that pregnancy excitement stuff and it made me a little jealous. I want those things again.
10/19/06
Day two of my diet and I had a potato for breakfast. That is what the diet said to do, so that’s what I’m doing. For the remainder of the day I am only allowed to eat vegetables. Last night was difficult because at my part time job they had free pizza, chips, cake, etc out on the tables in the break room. I just put my nose in the book I’m reading and ate my watermelon and cantaloupe. I hope today will be a bit easier. I feel a lot better already since I’ve started the day with a potato. I feel pretty full. I am very interested to see if I do loose the weight the diet claims a person should loose while on this diet. I feel like a science project. If the diet does work I’ll take a few days off and then start another week. I am working out in the evenings after my second job to help the process along. I also just feel better after a good work out. I wish I had more time to work out, but I just can’t get myself out of bed earlier in the morning. Oh well, at least I am squeezing some in. It will be nice when I go back to one full time job and I dream of the day I have a child and a part time job. That will be so great.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Nose
Sometimes I feel like I should be the highest paid actress in Hollywood…or at least the second highest. I smile and get my work done and keep my head up during my two jobs. Yeah, two jobs, but I am choosing that. It’s to save up for things we want. I hope this is the last time I will be able to work two jobs. Once we do have a child that survives I will cut my hours back to one full time job with the ultimate goal of part time and eventually no job at all. Inside I am feeling pretty fragile emotionally sometimes. I feel teary sometimes, but mostly at night before bed. That’s when I do most of my thinking. I am successful with distracting myself most of the day, but when I am trying to relax at night to sleep thoughts of Orion creep in and that is when I think of him the most. I take Benedryl to help me sleep sometimes. I need to be really tired to get to bed. Lately it has not been so hard with the hours I’m working.
This is a time in my life where I feel like I should do everything I’ve wanted to do, within reason. I don’t want any regrets. When I look back at my life later on I want to smile, not frown. I also do not want to wonder what something would have been like. I have been given some extra time for whatever reason to be without a living child, so I am going to make the most of it. Although sometimes I feel like I am just marking time until I am pregnant again. I am attempting to make my days go by faster by working so many hours. I’m a little frustrated with my work out schedule though. I was working out almost daily before I started working two jobs, but now I have a hard time fitting more than two in a week. I can’t get my butt out of bed early enough before my first job to get that part done I do want to loose my baby weight and since I’m not getting pregnant fast enough for my liking I might as well get rid of that (as I eat a chocolate Entenmann's donut). In my acupuncture I mentioned that I’d like to loose some weight and she placed some small pins in my ear to help me along. I feel like this is an interesting experiment for me.
I also got my nose pierced on Monday. I have been thinking about it for a little while, but didn’t think I would really do it. I love how it looks on other people, so I wanted to try it out on myself. I am still getting used to it, but I like it so far. In six weeks she can put a retainer in so I can take it out when I need to. This is part of my “no regrets” campaign. I saw a lady at the store the other day that looked to be my grandmother’s age and she had a nose ring, so I thought if she could do it I could do it and finally went to get it done. I am a little nervous about what people at church might say and I’m afraid of seeing the Bishop, (kind of like a rebellious teenager being afraid to show her dad). I’m sure it will be just fine though.
Since the theme of this blog lately has been focused on family planning I will say that I’m kind of disappointed that I have not had my period since August! Silly me, but I had hoped that my cycles would become regular after my pregnancy. Unfortunately that did not happen. My acupuncturist told me that it can take a while to regulate cycles and I understand that, but I told her I can take my time later (after I have a healthy child) with getting a regular cycle. I would like to take the Clomid as soon as possible (November) to get the show on the road right now and then later I’ll be patient and try to regulate my cycles with acupuncture. I’m actually counting down the weeks until my appointment. At least then I can start getting a push in the right direction. I got pregnant the first month I took Clomid last time. I’m not going to expect to get pregnant the first month again, but at least I know it works.
This is a time in my life where I feel like I should do everything I’ve wanted to do, within reason. I don’t want any regrets. When I look back at my life later on I want to smile, not frown. I also do not want to wonder what something would have been like. I have been given some extra time for whatever reason to be without a living child, so I am going to make the most of it. Although sometimes I feel like I am just marking time until I am pregnant again. I am attempting to make my days go by faster by working so many hours. I’m a little frustrated with my work out schedule though. I was working out almost daily before I started working two jobs, but now I have a hard time fitting more than two in a week. I can’t get my butt out of bed early enough before my first job to get that part done I do want to loose my baby weight and since I’m not getting pregnant fast enough for my liking I might as well get rid of that (as I eat a chocolate Entenmann's donut). In my acupuncture I mentioned that I’d like to loose some weight and she placed some small pins in my ear to help me along. I feel like this is an interesting experiment for me.
I also got my nose pierced on Monday. I have been thinking about it for a little while, but didn’t think I would really do it. I love how it looks on other people, so I wanted to try it out on myself. I am still getting used to it, but I like it so far. In six weeks she can put a retainer in so I can take it out when I need to. This is part of my “no regrets” campaign. I saw a lady at the store the other day that looked to be my grandmother’s age and she had a nose ring, so I thought if she could do it I could do it and finally went to get it done. I am a little nervous about what people at church might say and I’m afraid of seeing the Bishop, (kind of like a rebellious teenager being afraid to show her dad). I’m sure it will be just fine though.
Since the theme of this blog lately has been focused on family planning I will say that I’m kind of disappointed that I have not had my period since August! Silly me, but I had hoped that my cycles would become regular after my pregnancy. Unfortunately that did not happen. My acupuncturist told me that it can take a while to regulate cycles and I understand that, but I told her I can take my time later (after I have a healthy child) with getting a regular cycle. I would like to take the Clomid as soon as possible (November) to get the show on the road right now and then later I’ll be patient and try to regulate my cycles with acupuncture. I’m actually counting down the weeks until my appointment. At least then I can start getting a push in the right direction. I got pregnant the first month I took Clomid last time. I’m not going to expect to get pregnant the first month again, but at least I know it works.
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